Aloneness

Part of being passionate about psychology and finally getting to study more psychology and thinking in psychology terms is that many a times, it creates a sort of a vacuum witht the people you are dealing with. I don't mean to say that they don't understand you, it just means that they don't usually get the line ur thinking in. And that's not so much their fault as it is mine. And therefore not as much their problem as it is mine.

So the other day I'm talking to a friend and all throughout the chat I'm dissecting what she says not only for its meaning, but also for its psychological implications and likely reasons. It's not like I choose to do it, it happens unconsciously...i just catch myself doing it. And the worst part is, i want to share it, but for some reason, i cannot, I'm already confused halfway thru the conversation, and 1 confused person is better than both.

I don't think what's happening is a bad thing, as a matter of fact, i quite enjoy thinking and feeling with that bent of mind. It's plenty of fun, but i don't know what it does to relationships. And that is a version of that same old fear again. The fear of letting go.